SAVE YOUR SOUL
For most, “getting saved” is a matter of saying a short prayer during the alter call at the end of a church service . . .
. . . or, in my case, saying the Salvation Prayer three separate times and then again after getting baptized and completing confirmation class.
Did my life dramatically change after “getting saved”? The shorter answer is, ‘No.’
I was raised Christian, so I believed in God, prayed The Lord’s Prayer every night and thought I was a good person, but at the end of the day, I was still addicted to porn and lusted after every girl that walked past me on the street, a bad habit I had picked up during high school.
Throughout college and graduate school, I used to waste entire days watching porn and masturbating to the point that it started to effect my health. I began to experience symptoms of ‘prostatitis,’ something that took years to get rid of and that was what eventually spurred my interest in alternative health and bodybuilding years later.
I had no concept that what I was doing was wrong until after years went by and I took a hard look at myself in the mirror at the age of 27 and finally realized that I had frittered away most of my life chasing an illusory fantasy that 1) wasn’t real and 2) was distracting me from maturing into a well-rounded adult. I had become so sex-obsessed that I completely neglected to do the things that would have put me on the path to a healthy, long-term relationship leading toward marriage, which was the very thing I wanted all along.
At around 2008-2009, I lost my job and suddenly had a lot of time on my hands to ponder life. I noticed a shift in the spirit, but I didn’t understand what it was. I became extremely interested in politics. I spent days reading books on Ron Paul. As I read more and more, I began to fancy myself a conservative-libertarian.
I frequented all the blogs, attended all the meetings and even became a Republican district leader. I helped Republican candidates run against incumbent Democrats and even tried to get Peter Schiff elected in Connecticut. Unfortunately, the Republican establishment in Connecticut locked him out of the convention and the nomination was given to Linda McMahon who went on to lose.
Despite this, I was happy because political campaigning gave my life meaning. Out of the blue, I was offered a talk show on the local radio station. I quickly accepted and began to do a libertarian talk show called ‘The Rob Rennie Show.’
After about a year of doing the show and keeping abreast of everything that was going on in the news, I started to wonder why there was so much corruption at the higher levels. It was no longer a Republican-Democrat issue. That’s when I started getting into the conspiracy shows, aliens and ‘the Illuminati.’ After sifting through mountains of disinformation, I found a video that talked about the New Age and Alistair Crowley. I found other videos about the connection between certain pop singers and the occult. I started to learn about the real spiritual evil that runs the world.
At around this time, I was was teaching a freshman writing course at the local community college. During the lesson, I made a rare mention of Jesus for the purpose of illustrating a point, prompting one of my students to approach me after class. He asked me if I believe in Jesus. I said ‘Yes.’
Then he said, ‘Are you saved?’ ‘Of course’ I said. I’d been going to church since I was little, I told him. Then he said, ‘How do you know you’re saved?’
I had to be honest. ‘I don’t know’ I said. Then he wanted to know if I spoke in tongues. He explained that in his church, they believed in the in-filling of the Holy Spirit evidenced by speaking in tongues. ‘No’ I told him. ‘I don’t know what speaking in tongues is.’
‘Well,’ he said, ‘You can’t speak in tongues if you don’t have the Holy Spirit inside of you. Have you ever asked the Holy Spirit to come inside you?’ I admitted to him that I didn’t know what the Holy Spirit was, much less ask him to come inside me. It seemed like an absurd question to be asking me at the time.
He explained to me that all I had to do was ask, so later that night, that’s what I did. I asked the Holy Spirit of the living God to physically come live inside me. When I did this, a powerful feeling of peace came over my entire body. It even cleared my sinuses. I had never experienced anything like it. I wondered if I would immediately start speaking in tongues, but it didn’t happen at this point.
The next day, I could feel that something was different, but I couldn’t tell what. I went about my day, but I noticed that I started to have an intense interest in the things of God. I started listening to testimonies of Jesus Christ on YouTube. I started wanting to read my Bible more.
Simultaneously, I started getting pretty intense episodes of sleep paralysis almost every night. If you don’t know what sleep paralysis is, it’s when you wake up not being able to move or speak and you sense an malevolent or evil presence in the room.
I used to wake up in the middle of the night to the feeling of sexual penetration and the bed rocking for years starting when I was young, but now I was experiencing something far worse. I began researching it online and found that many Christians had experienced it and had used the name of Jesus to make it stop, so I resolved to do the same thing the next time it happened.
Sure enough, it happened again and this time, I used the name of Jesus against it by saying something like, ‘Leave in the name of Jesus’ and I actually heard an audible scream say,’ Nooooooo’ in the most creepy voice I’d ever heard. I was wide awake when this happened and I remember it vividly.
Then, I had this dream so terrifying that my spirit left my body. I remember floating at the top of my ceiling in my room looking down on my body lying in bed. Something told me to go back inside my body, so I did, but there was something evil inside that must have slipped in while I was gone. I couldn’t move my arms or legs or anything. This was probably the most frightened I had ever been in my life. I immediately starting praying The Lord’s Prayer and when I did, something inside me started to vibrate and shake, but wouldn’t budge, so I kept praying. By the third time I said The Lord’s Prayer, I felt three or more ‘things’ leave my body. They flew out of chest and I remember feeling immediate relief when they did. I didn’t understand it at the time, but The Lord had supernaturally delivered me from lust and a whole host of other demons.
After that, the enemy got desperate and would try to torment me every night for at least a month or so. Each time, they would get bolder and bolder. I remember this one time, I was having a frightening dream and in the dream, a hornet flew into my ear and was buzzing around my head. At that very instant in the dream is when I woke up and when I did, I could sense that the whole room was full of shadowy figures whose presence had weight to it, just like actual people standing there in my room. The bee buzzing in my ear was really a demon putting something spiritual in my ear to try to scare me. After that, another demon made my heart race really fast like it was going to burst out of my chest, but by this time, I was no longer scared of them, so I kept my mind calm and kept rebuking them in Jesus’ name. As I look back on that night, I realize that they tried to kill me.
What I noticed, though, was that they were not leaving. The rebuking didn’t seem to be working, so I tried something else I had just learned – speaking in tongues. After speaking in tongues and rebuking at the same time continuously for at least an hour or two, I remember experiencing the greatest peace I’d ever felt. It was like a spiritual bomb went off in my house that had caused all spiritual darkness to flee not just my house, but my entire neighborhood. I finally began to realize that fear, depression, anxiety, all of these extraneous feelings that we think are coming from us are really various forms of spiritual deception. That’s when I started experimenting with prayer intercession (continuous prayer in tongues for extended periods of time) and eventually how I learned about self-deliverance and spiritual warfare in order to be able to be used by God as a vessel to help others.
That’s also finally when I trusted The Lord enough to formally give my life to him 100% without reservation to do with it what he wanted, which in my opinion, was my true “getting saved” moment.
Then, The Lord told me change my show into a Christian show featuring personal testimonies of Jesus Christ, current events and deliverance. That’s how ‘The Eternal Planner w/ Rob Rennie’ was born and the rest is history.
I tell you all this to ask you this critical question -
‘How do you know you’re saved?’
Have you asked The Holy Spirit to physically come inside you and guide you?’
‘Have you formally given your life to The Lord Jesus 100% and without reservation to do with it what He wants?’
Now that you’ve read my story, you no longer have any excuse not to get to know God and to get right with Him. He’s waiting for you right now.
‘Dear God, please forgive me for my sins and reveal yourself to me. I ask that you send your Holy Spirit to physically come inside me and to guide me into all truth. Save me, protect me from all evil, in Jesus’ name, amen.’
Thank you for reading and may God bless you abundantly!
“For whosoever shall call upon the name of The Lord shall be saved.” Romans 10:13